I will make you hate me
More than you thought possible
For you will never love me
The way I hoped you would
Start saving your tears
For you will cry for me
-reposting
Gising na ko sa katotohanan na tama sila. Yung iba sa kanila, tama. Nung sinabi nilang mali to, tama sila.
Nung inisip kong baka tama ako, nagkamali ako.
Hindi pala ko gising nung inisip ko yun, hindi pala ikaw ang nakita ko nun. Ibang tao pala yun, yun yung akala ko ikaw.
Nagkamali nanaman ako.
Okay lang siguro, ulit na lang ulit.
Tulog ulit?
Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.
Paulo Coelho
Dati parang ang hirap hanapin ng taong mukhang tama para sayo. O, ang bagal dumating ng taong para sayo.
Mas mahirap pala kapag ikaw ang hindi tama para sa taong nagpapasaya sayo. Ano naman kung hindi sya yung tama, kung hindi pa sya yung 'the one'? Ok lang yun, diba? Ang importante yung napapasaya ka niya kahit wala syang gawin.
E pano nga kung hindi ka naman tama para sa kanya. Unfair bang ikaw lang ang masaya...
Kung sabagay, quits lang siguro kasi wala naman syang pakialam. Kung iisipin mo mas ok nga yun, diba? Di mo kelangan umeffort, di rin sya umeeffort. Sakto lang.
Kaso nasasaktan ka pa rin no? Kapag nakikita mong nahihirapan sya, kaibigan ka e. Ayaw mong nasasaktan mga kaibigan mo. Pero nasasaktan ka din kapag nakikita mong hindi mo kayang bawasan man lang yung sakit. Gusto mo sana magvolunteer. Ikaw na lang, pero alam mo naman ng di ka sapat. In other words, useless ka.
So anong gagawin mo, kapag napapasaya ka nya kahit nasasaktan ka? Hindi naman nya kasalanang nahuhulog ka di ba?
Magtitiyaga ka ba sa kung ano na lang makuha mo? Wala ka naman ibang pagkakaabalahan e. Yun lang, nung huli mo ginawa yan, para kang nagmumog at lumunok ng basag na bote ng red horse. Duguan at may tama sa huli.
Hindi naman ako humihingi ng signs. Namesake mo yung katabi ko sa coffeeshop. Song mo yung tinutugtog sa store. Nasa coffeeshop ako, inaassociate kita dito. Magulo lang.
Hindi ako humihingi ng signs. So hindi to sign, nakikita Lang
Kita sa maraming bagay. Hassle!
Andami dami dami dami dami dami kong gusto sabihin sayo. Di ko alam kung pano sisimulan, di ko lam kung pano tatapusin.
Ang totoo hindi ko rin maintindihan.
Ang alam ko lang masaya ko kapag nandyan ka, dun lang ako sigurado.
Ok lang kaya yun?
Do you know how sharks are caught? They use a J hook, I think. They put buoys on the line steadily increasing the drag. They let you swim away thinking you'll be able to escape. Just when you thought you are free, they pull you in, you struggle a bit, and they let you go again. It goes on for a while until you're too tired to put up a fight. That's when they reel you in.
That's how hearts get caught. And you rarely get out unscathed.
You know what is funny about this post? It's that in 5 seconds you will realize this is not about you, stupid.
Everyone hates having second thoughts. I especially hate having second thoughts about something that I need to do. Something I want badly a few months ago. I'm not sure what changed, cold feet? Stress, pressure. I'm not sure giving myself time is working. I think I have given myself enough time. Things should have worked itself out by now.
Boo me. If things do not pan out in the next few days, all efforts will be wasted.
When you make a move towards something you want, you have to keep trying. When it does not make a move towards you, you try again. You try until you succeed, not when you get tired and not when someone tells you to stop.
But you have to stop at some point. Not on a preset date, not on an agreed upon finish line. You stop when you know it is time.
You stop when you’re moving towards something that keeps moving away. You stop when you are no longer the same person moving towards the same thing. You stop when you can no longer find a silly explanation to keep moving towards it.
You stop when you’re no longer learning. You stop when you’re no longer happy.
The one who will empower you to be who you want to be.
The one who will bring out the best in you.
The one who will make you realize you are complete on your own.
The one who will make all your days worth looking forward to.
The one who will argue endlessly with you about mundane things.
The one who will stand by you no matter how wrong he thinks you are.
The one who will point out all these wrong things once you are together in private.
The one who will love the things you hate most about yourself.
The one who will love you.
The one.
