Getting used to 'minus 1'

The hardest part is not making the decision. It's living with the consequences of that decision.

Will you still want what you want when you get it?

No, I don't think you should get married just because you've already invested several years of your life in a relationship.

No, I don't think you should get married because of familiarity or practicality.

No, I don't think you should get married just because.

No, I don't think you should rush into anything.

No, I don't think you should get married because everyone's at it.

Yes, I think you should think about it.

Yes, I think you should save, prepare and have the wedding you've always wanted.

Yes, I think you should find the one you want to spend the rest of your life with and marry that person.

Quite logical? Logical enough? I just choose to say the exact opposite of what I believe in. That's the illogical part.

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What was the diagnosis again? Is it capable of being fixed? No longer salvageable? Are you going to fix it? Are you still trying to stitch it back together?

What was I supposed to do again? Was I supposed to enjoy my last moments or was I supposed to just find another hobby?

Was I supposed to take a grand vacation to forget what you said? Or
was I supposed to stay in place?

Wait. Have you given a diagnosis yet? Or did I just get ahead of myself? Again.