These days I can't allow my mind to wander for a couple of minutes. It senses that my defenses are down and goes on overdrive. A rollercoaster emotional ride. Not fun. Induces vomiting and hating. Wondering and complaining. What ifs and what nots. Nitpicking and missing the big picture. Boo mind! Sometimes i wish you'll just shut up. Shut up.
I am done with my graceless heart. So tonight I'm gonna cut it off and then restart. F+m
I'm tired. The tides can carry me wherever, or drown me if needed. I'm no longer fighting.
“If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. "PC
There is silence that is comforting, much needed. And there's one that is foreboding, almost apathetic. That's the silence I do not want. Do not need. Do not welcome. It presents itself in situations that require words. An explanation. If not an explanation at least a heads up will suffice. But there is something worse than silence. It is silence under the guise of non-silence. It is when one pretends the silence is non existent.
It is when one pretends, fades and ----
