Confusedself signing on

“Yes, my mind was wandering. I wished I were there with someone who could bring peace to my heart someone with whom I could spend a little time without being afraid that i would lose him the next day. With that reassurance, the time would pass more slowly. We could be silent for a while because we'd know we had the rest of our lives together for conversation. I wouldn't have to worry about serious matters, about difficult decisions and hard words.” PC

It's raining. I'm alone in my head and it is not always a good thing. Make it 2 days alone in my head, and I can't even come up with a solid distraction for at least 2 minutes. I've been bothered by confused thoughts for more than a week. I knew putting off tackling these thoughts was a bad idea, and as luck would have it I am forced to tread these murky thoughts in the most inoppurtune time lest I sink.

“What's the world greatest lie? the boy asked, completely surprised. "it's this: that at a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate. That's the world's greatest lie.” PC