old ideas part three

I’m overdoing it. It’s difficult to let go of something you thought you’ve wanted forever and find that it is not for you. I could have made it work. I could. I know. Eventually the load will lighten up, the pressure will be relieved and I’ll start to enjoy again. But I’m too much of an idealist (translated to stubborn) right now.

I screwed up a great opportunity that will never come by again because I’m too scared to pass by that road again. Maybe I’m just lazy. Romanticizing stuff.

I love that I’m feeling conflict right now, I haven’t resorted to apathy yet.