some love

funny, how we broke up. i've been wanting to see him, never to be with him just love him from afar. and so everyday i would watch from my corner to admire the lovely handiwork of the heavens. to watch how people just can't help but fall in love with him. to watch people be with him. and everyday i would notice how far he has moved from that familiar spot where i used to gaze at him. until one day i realized i can't even see his face, nor hear his voice. i could only imagine how he used to speak, how he looked. and so everyday from my little corner, i would sit and hope. time would be cruel, it would hold on to me like some gum stuck on your pants. i would never move on like they all did.

one day i saw a face so unlike the one i used to know, but still makes my heart feel. for some strange twist of fate he was there in front of me like i always hoped would happen.

and so everyday he would be with me, be the perfect him that he will always be. until i knew i've gotten so far i couldn't let go.

and he would smile and laugh like we were meant to be. i enjoyed all those times. imprinted in my heart not my head.

we were too good to be true, they would say. and one day i would realize just how true it is.

i have gotten so used with the hurt, the longing, that having you with me is just too much. and so it happened, like a dream. the word goodbye flew out of my mouth like a knife threatening to kill.

he was hurt i knew he was. i too was dying inside.

so i returned to my corner, admiring the amazing handiwork of the heavens.i thought i saw tears. but i could not allow myself the satisfaction, of the tears i so longed to fall for me.

there are lots of people around him, professing love they thought they felt. claiming to love him like i did. like i do. like i always will. but they will never know what it's like to have you