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black is not evil.it's just misunderstood
Locked at 3443, self inflicted. If you happen to have spotted me, the dementors were probably distracted. I drink poison in unimaginable amounts to keep this life rolling.
black is not evil.it's just misunderstood
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what makes it all worse. to exist and to forget the exquisite art of living. hell they say to be living.a handful people differ. and the remaining lot make it true
for rest of them who do not believe it is grand to be living.to be mediocre,to be content with what you know is not the most. to let it go before you're sure that it never was for you.for everyday that you're frozen,for everyday that you exist.you make it worse for those who need a hand,when it's you who could be more.and you know.
it's being right there in the middle, being mediocre. and you will never be mediocre unless you know you've given it all. there are a few who bring out the best in you, and a few who pretend. but in the end it's all you, the best and not the mediocre.
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“In a small house in Dorking, Surrey, a light was on in a bedroom window. Newton Pulsifer was twelve, and thin, and bespectacled, and he should have been in bed hours ago.”
“Sometimes he was called White, or Blanc, or Albus, or Chalky, or Weiss, or Snowy, or any one of the hundred other names. His skin was pale, his hair a faded blond, his eyes light gray… “
-Excerpts from Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett’s Good Omens.
I don’t know if it’s just me or those sound like descriptions of Harry Potter and his ‘childhood enemy’ Draco. (and by childhood enemy I mean Draco has found himself a ‘new archrival’, himself.)
Living in Surrey, thin and bespectacled.(Harry). Pale skin, faded blond hair, light gray eyes…what’s funny are the names: Albus? Snowy? Nothing really that was just my active imagination.
Good Omens was definitely a good read. With all the things that’s happening around the world, natural calamities, death. Dementors running loose. Reading a book like that makes you hope that the ‘antichrist’ (in loose terms) was misplaced. Now living in Europe does sound more interesting…What with an angel-demon-guardian, with the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse in motorcycles (with four followers that possess rather hilariously concocted names) a misplaced baby antichrist with an extremely long title, (that just has to be repeated in full lest you risk the wrath Hell) with a dog named Dog, and other characters that help bring the book in simple terms, sarcastic at times(with some not-for-slow-people-jokes)but a metaphor for life. Oh and lots of subtitles too, you can’t help but look for them in the next book you read until you realize your wasting time looking for the non-existent. Got to love the book.
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Veronika decides to die: My first try on a Paulo Coelho work. Interestingly, I enjoyed it. I simply thought it would be overrated. I didn’t think it had a climax, it seemed like a collection of various stories from deemed ‘crazy people’, which I feel was the central theme. Nevertheless, full to the brim with very nice (I can’t think of another description) quotes, about life and all about the struggle of mankind. Simple words, makes you dwell more on the underlying meaning instead of constantly reaching for the dictionary. You can’t help but feel like you’re in the same situation.
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wow! i was looking at my endless list of books to read and wow! i definitely have to live a little longer than i thought i should last, because the list goes ever on and on. and this is all amazon's fault.and those who make reviews that make it seem interesting. for the nth time i realized i should be reading but i'm not and for quite sometime i've been stuck to good omens. not sure if that's because i'm dreading having to read one hundred years of solitude, i am so close to returning that book and moving on. my life= in a rut. right now i can see myself, in a very comfortable seat at the cinema, having a GoF, Memoirs of a Geisha and Da Vinci Code marathon. oh dear i'm boring myself to death, is there blood coming out of my ears?
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'd'you know how i know your gay? because you like coldplay.'
is that so?:)
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A nice, tall very cold coffee to soothe your bloody mouth. With whipped cream on top and caramel drizzle that settles very nicely in your mouth. What a limited vocabulary would describe as a perfect end to a useless day. Sweet laziness= guilt free coffee while in front of the computer, rambling. Don’t you just love life? Love it so much you want to destroy every being not capable of ‘living’ it. Love it so much you want to trample the useless beings who EXIST. World domination at its best: reserving the world for PEOPLE!
Coffee just brings out the best in you!
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misery in the past does not entail unending despair. After all, how the hell are going to own the world?
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Girl Name: You are quick to point out
Lady Lilth
someone's mistakes. You tend to hold grugdes
longer than most people but forgive people who
deserve death.
What Is Your Goth Name?
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There's a Dragon in your soul. You are very wise
and like to give people advice. You mostly feel
like you are misunderstood and don't like a lot
of people around you. 2 or 3 friends are
enough. You can be very emotional but because
of your intelligence you have the power to go
on and find a solution. You are wise, but
nobody can solve all problems alone, so don't
turn away from everybody and ask for help
sometimes too. That way, problems will be much
easier to solve.
What Mystical Creature is in your soul? ( With Pictures)
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"those are narrow minded people who do not give a damn about using even 1 percent of their god given intelligence. and we are not challenging religion we are discussing faith"
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what's weird in this society is that those who help uphold religion are those who ruin it. should faith be shaken? should we listen for the sake of being religious and let our faith take the backseat? should we believe everything they try to input in what they think are our puny brains? should we be passive about the issues that hammer our religion believing that our faith will save us? should we stop using our god given brains to try and fathom or at least get a glimpse of what life is all about?
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the pen is stuck
between the brain and his stomach
the ink and the red drip
one by one
on the white
as words form on the blank
between his heart and stomach grows weak
the pen is stuck
above
the between of his brain and stomach
what never came out
drifted in the air
then dropped on the white
along with the black and the red
the blank is full
of what was him
of what they never knew
the white is no more
it's what he is
that never was
the beating is dull
irregular
until it stopped
and someone trips
on what used to be
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yup!yes! it's finally available for the itchy hands of hp sleuths, time to see which speculations will turn out to be intelligent guesses.my copy is about ready to board a plane,probably next week my posts will consist of endless rantings about the half blood prince. anyway this past week was easier on me. less problems about deadlines, though two weeks from now is the judgung for our major plate. sandamakmak na dasal nanaman ang matatanggap ng langit, sana pumasa ko!! well next week din ung report namin sa theory of archi, isa pa un sana naman ok. hmmm... actually nagpapanggap lang akong calm (sabi nga ni nikki) pero sobrang excited na ko sa hbp.
in a way mixed emotions, happy that the long wait is over but dreading the end of the only thing that keeps me sane. well to most it doesn't keep me sane, but i know what i mean. half of the people reading this agree, half disagree, and half don't even know what i'm talking about(kagaya ng sabi sa seinfeld ' half silk half cotton half linen. how can you go wrong) anyway this will be the last of my sane post in a while. possibly my last post for this month, depending on how much they hate us in school. oh, at baka nga pala maligaw kami sa vigan next month after ng prelims, pahinga, pero sa bulsa ng nanay ko hindi :)
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katapos ko lang kumain. it's almost midnight pero syempre takas pa rin ng isang entry dito. this week is so NOT good for me and that is me being optimistic. design is complete torture! torture in its purest form. lots of pressure, not that i haven't gotten used to it, i mean 2 years of nerves nerves nerves. but this sem is proving to be the worst and that is me doing my work on time. this is probably the effect of having Series of Unfortunate events (from now on, SoUE) stuck to my nose. it took me a week to finish 'the grim grotto'.pretty depressing when i need to get started on my Half-blood Prince(HBP) practice. Haha, practice daw kelangan na kasi i refresh ang mind at makapagformulate ng pahabol na theories.sino nga ba ang half blood prince.
haaaaaay... currently on tv is national geographic's unlocking the da vinci's code. anong bang deal dyan? have you read the book? hindi pa? well you should masarap basahin, on the postive side gets you thinking about your faith. not your religion. goodness me! kung religion na lang ang palaging iisipin wala na talagang maliligtas satin. napansin kaya ng ibang nagbasa ang nakasulat na 'a novel' in front of the cover?it tests your faith, sabi nila. well ako, siguro nasobrahan sa publicity, at wala ng effect. or is it safe to say that i do have a strong faith? naaah... masyado din akong maraming tanong dyan. sa sociology nga lang kung nagtatanong siguro ko, e di na natapos ang class.
haaaaaaaay...ulit. antok na ko. at ikaw rin. :) baka bukas di na tayo pareho magising. so don't waste time! labo ! good night!
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