2 minutes lang yan

I like you in a more than a friend kind of way. I don't know what changed or when exactly it happened. It was probably between the stress of reviewing for the board exams, finishing planning, work and all little things. I know there is nothing remotely romantic lost between the 2 of us. When we talk, it does not even sound like friendship. I just need to say this, I have a bet with myself saying I can.

I don't need any speech consoling me. We don't see each other regularly so it should not be awkward.

I ramble in my head when I try to organize these thoughts . But I'm pretty sure with whatever message I want to convey.

2 minutes lang e. Di pa ko pinakinggan. Tanga ko talaga magtext.

CTRL Z

Need to relearn a lot of things, need to undo my knowledge of you. Everytime i think of you, i lose track of where i am heading. And so i need to undo you. 

I was hoping you will get to where i am now. If there was any chance you're bound to get there, you will have gotten there by now. 

My analytical mind is telling me exactly the right thing to do. My mending heart is begging me to stay. My heart keeps telling me i cant stand to lose you. My mind is telling me i have nothing anyway. 

And so i am back where i started. Thinking i had things figured out. Thanks for the company while it lasted. You win some, you learn some. And you are my lesson for tonight.

Sit down beside me

I miss you. I actually long to sit beside you. To grab a cup of coffee and talk nonsense. Or not talk at all. 

It's crazy that i miss you like this. But i do. I could spend the whole day thinking about how much i miss you if i had nothing better to do. I rarely do. 

I don't understand why.I can't do anything about it. And so it goes.

I'm not sure what hurts more. Missing you or knowing you don't miss me too,

I hope

I hope to be found by someone.
I hope to find someone.
Who will hold my hand as we stroll the mall and won't leave me behind.
Who has me on his mind not only when he needs company.
Who makes me feel special.

I don't mean to sound bitter.
When I'm with you, I get the opposite of these.
But it makes me long more for that someone.

I hope to meet you soon.
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Danger

I. Need. To. Stop. Checking. Facebook.

Currently under repair..

I miss you like hell

When I go strolling at the mall.
When I walk by the arcade.
When I sit at a coffee shop.
When I drink coffee.
When I am awake.

I miss you

...

some questions do not get answers because they were a little too late.

some words do not have the same impact because they were a little too late.

won't care until emotions are thawed.

When I allowed myself the tears, I forgot to write. Now that you're a closed chapter, the words are back

I will make you hate me
More than you thought possible
For you will never love me
The way I hoped you would
Start saving your tears
For you will cry for me

-reposting

...

Don't let me fall. I just want to be happy and smile with my eyes.

...

Para ko na lang kausap ang sarili ko. Useless na nandyan ka, di na kita marinig

Gising na!

Gising na ko sa katotohanan na tama sila. Yung iba sa kanila, tama. Nung sinabi nilang mali to, tama sila.

Nung inisip kong baka tama ako, nagkamali ako.

Hindi pala ko gising nung inisip ko yun, hindi pala ikaw ang nakita ko nun. Ibang tao pala yun, yun yung akala ko ikaw.

Nagkamali nanaman ako.

Okay lang siguro, ulit na lang ulit.

Tulog ulit?

Delirious

Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.

Paulo Coelho

Quitters never win

Should you quit before the game is even over?