I can't say it but Adele can

You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day,
lose myself in time just thinking of your face
God only knows why it's taking me so long
to let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never try to forget your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worth it to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile
Until the end starts

Have I been on your mind?
You hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time
At the mention of my name,
will I ever know
How it feels to hold you close
And have you tell me which ever road I choose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling every word, I've imagined it all,
You'll never know if you never tried to forgive your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile
Until the end starts

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart
I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worth it to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance

To prove I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts
Come and give me the chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts.

2 minutes lang yan

I like you in a more than a friend kind of way. I don't know what changed or when exactly it happened. It was probably between the stress of reviewing for the board exams, finishing planning, work and all little things. I know there is nothing remotely romantic lost between the 2 of us. When we talk, it does not even sound like friendship. I just need to say this, I have a bet with myself saying I can.

I don't need any speech consoling me. We don't see each other regularly so it should not be awkward.

I ramble in my head when I try to organize these thoughts . But I'm pretty sure with whatever message I want to convey.

2 minutes lang e. Di pa ko pinakinggan. Tanga ko talaga magtext.

CTRL Z

Need to relearn a lot of things, need to undo my knowledge of you. Everytime i think of you, i lose track of where i am heading. And so i need to undo you. 

I was hoping you will get to where i am now. If there was any chance you're bound to get there, you will have gotten there by now. 

My analytical mind is telling me exactly the right thing to do. My mending heart is begging me to stay. My heart keeps telling me i cant stand to lose you. My mind is telling me i have nothing anyway. 

And so i am back where i started. Thinking i had things figured out. Thanks for the company while it lasted. You win some, you learn some. And you are my lesson for tonight.

Sit down beside me

I miss you. I actually long to sit beside you. To grab a cup of coffee and talk nonsense. Or not talk at all. 

It's crazy that i miss you like this. But i do. I could spend the whole day thinking about how much i miss you if i had nothing better to do. I rarely do. 

I don't understand why.I can't do anything about it. And so it goes.

I'm not sure what hurts more. Missing you or knowing you don't miss me too,